March 20th 12
I’m sometimes left wondering these days, as I get older what a friend consists of. It can’t be someone who is a hypocrite, or someone you can’t come to terms with tolerating. Someone who can’t accept the fact that people grow and people change. Shouldn’t a friend be okay with the fact that you also have other friends because you have your own life, you do your own things? To you, my so called “friend” I have been trying to find a reason to not be your friend anymore but I can’t seem to let you go. We have been friends for 8 years and I love the hell out of you but the things you do and the fact you can’t accept that I’m on a total opposite end of the spectrum then you bothers me. We grew up differently, normally that is what bring two people together, their differences. I find my self getting serious with my boyfriend and I want someone to stand next to me that has been my girl and has had my back for years but the more I think about that, I have no one. I can’t even include you in this thought of my future. When I see a wedding party, I see no ‘maid of honor’ I just me and my man and our famaily’s before us. I’ve become okay with this as times pass and our lives change and grow, but when will you? Never? because that’s what I am banking on. i wish you could have been at that wedding I attended a couple of weeks ago. That was so beyond the true meaning of friends it was the greatest thing I had ever witnessed. No one hated anyone, no one was bitter towards anyone. Not one girl in that place was a hater or a whore or a bitch to any other girl. Guys and girls mingled as equals not as seperates. It was refreshing. You have left me to re-think my choice is friends as I approach my mid twenties and if this leaves me with no girlfriend to turn to for the rest of my life when things get tough or to celebrate my milestones with than so be it. Just wish you werent so hypocritical of my life and sat back and took a look at yours.
